One of my kick-ass friends let me borrow Rhythm Heaven for the Nintendo DS.  It's fuuuuuun, definately worth checking out if you like music games.  If you dont, then you're SOL.  Sometimes, it's so hard that I want to break my DS, but it's still a great game.  It doesnt explain things as well as it should.  She's completely beaten everything there is to possibly do in the game, which I think is insane.  I'm having troubles with it.  I think I'm going bowling with her and her friends later on tonight, should be fun.  I cant wait to make a fool out of myself, havent bowled in forever, but it's always fun even if you lose.

These last few days have been shitty, I dont feel like talking about it.  Alotta work.  Tonight, relax.

Man, I have SO much fun hanging out with her...

I'm in Ann Arbor for the weekend, gettin some shit done that needs to get done.

Whew, hectic day today.  Lots of physics, all day.  Gonna finish my Classical Civilization paper tonight, hopefully.  Better get to work.

Speaking of work, gotta mention my workout, which I been doin, and I plan to keep doin.  I think I might transform my blog into a workout journal for a while.  I'll post my accomplishments, along with a weekly picture of the upper-half of my bod to have some visual incentive to keep up the burn everyday.  Hopefully I can get some constructive criticism as well, I'm open to all suggestions.

I should be a more forgiving person.  So, instead of wasting time contemplating it, I'm just going to go ahead and do it.  Everyone who I blocked on Xanga, Facebook, and YouTube, are all unblocked.  I have a few hundred people blocked on Xanga.  I had a few random people blocked on YouTube.  On Facebook, I had blocked a few bullies from my grade school years.

Even though I am always right, 100% of the time, sometimes it's best just to let others have their own opinions.  You cant convert everyone.  So, if you're a subscriber of mine, I urge you to find someone in your life who you've had a fight with, and forgive them.  Who knows, maybe you'll get back in touch with an old best friend?  I forgave one of my friends a few months ago, and we've been on good terms ever since then.  I think that we both have grown up quite a bit since then, you may be surprised to see the positive changes that the other person in your life has gone through since you last talked to them!

So some of you on my protected posting list already know that I've been struggling with whether or not I want to attempt to lose my virginity as soon as possible, or do it whenever it comes into question, or if I want to wait until I'm with a woman who I've had a healthy relationship with for a while, or if I want to wait until marriage.  I was raised in a Christian family, and while I never was a Christian, I always liked the idea of a couple saving themselves until marriage.  Basically, I've been thinking about the whole concept quite a bit, because I wanted to be prepared with an answer when the time does come.

I made a guest post on one of Xanga's sister sites, Datingish, and I got quite a bit of feedback.  I wasnt asking for the right answer, I'm not about to live my life based on others' opinions, but I wanted to get an idea of what everyone else thought.  I got over 200 unique comments!  I feel like alot of people got the wrong impression that I was dead-set on waiting until marriage, which isnt the case.  While it's true that I consider sex to be a deeply spiritual thing, I also love the physical relief aspect of it.  It feels good, and I know I'll love it when it happens, no denying that.  Of course I'll love fucking.  But I'd rather my very first time be something emotionally meaningful instead of physical relief.

I've finally come to a conclusion on the whole sex thing, this is my own opinion, not anyone else's.  I've decided that my first time will be with someone who I've had a healthy relationship with for a while.  I wont necessarily wait for marriage, but if that's something that she wants, then I'll do it.  That would be special, but I honestly dont expect it in the type of society that we live in nowadays.

I'm glad that I've finally come to a conclusion that I feel comfortable with.  I know that this is all may seem a bit silly to alot of you who've been doing it for years, but it was a hard decision for me and I spent years thinking about it.  It'll probably be a long time until sex actually happens for me anyways, since I havent even received my first kiss yet, or gotten a girlfriend.  I get alot of flack for that.  But I see it happening in the foreseeable future, I've really cleaned up my life and I've noticed that girls are alot more attracted to me now than they ever were before.  Eating healthy, exercising, taking care of my body, quitting alcohol, going the extra mile each morning to look my best, it's TOTALLY worth it.  Deleting all of my porn, leaving my door open more, getting some sun and fresh air, getting on my current ADHD perscription, no longer visiting message boards and flaming and trolling, no longer making racist/sexist/perverted jokes, getting started on work instead of procrastinating, hitting up the gym, all of these things have ultimately made my life better.  2009 has been my great year of change for the better.

Majorly stressed out, need to blog to calm myself down.  I'm all moved in at UoM Flint, I'm living in a 4-person suite with 2 other people, and it's a brand new dorm so it's really fucking nice.  I'll post pictures later, my room is the shit.  Only problem, no ethernet jacks, it's all wireless.  This isnt that big of a problem, except that UoM Flint's wireless internet is shitty, slow, and severely over-protected.  I had a hell of a time getting it set up, a guy like me with extensive computer knowledge should NOT have to go to an IT desk to get my shit fixed, EVER.  Everytime I went in there, they did shit that made absolutely zero since to me, and it certainly isnt helped by the fact that they dont automatically email you instructions of what they did after they did it incase you run into the problem again.  Example, I had to set up my proxy to connect to the internet.  I wasnt sure how I was supposed to do that since Flint's wireless is so fucked up, so I go in and have someone else do it.  He opens up Firefox, does some shit, and it works so I'm happy with it and I leave.  About half an hour ago, I felt like clearing out my browser's cache, and after that I had a problem where it kept authenticating and requesting my username and password constantly.  It was pure hell.  I went in to get it fixed, that same guy wasnt there, so I had to explain what he did to someone else who worked there.  The guy kept insisting that it was one of my Firefox Add-Ons interfering.  That's bullshit, the two things arent related at all, no person working at a help desk should ever make such a stupid guess and feel confident about his answer.  He was pissing me off, so I left, came back to my place, braved through the annoying-as-hell continuous pop-ups and figured this shit out myself.  I set my proxy to automatically configure in IE, and Firefox automatically detected this and started working like normal again.  I couldnt have known this since I expect the world, including Flint's wireless, to be compatible with Firefox, one of the most popular webbrowsers out there.  But NOOOO.  Flint expects you to do that in IE, and that's something that that guy SHOULD have known, and that should have been the very first thing he did.

K, the number of people who I'm subscribed to is getting out of hand.  I've got 142 subscriptions, and I read them ALL.  Remember, I subscribed to you all because I love reading all of your blogs, dont get me wrong.  I'm just putting this out there, if you arent subscribed to me a week from now, I'm unsubscribing from your blog.  Sorry guys, I truly do love reading all of your blogs, but I've got to make time in my life for other things and if you dont care about my blog enough to read it, perhaps I shouldnt be looking into your blog so much.  This also gives everyone a chance to unsubscribe if they want to, I want everyone to feel 100% guilt-free if they truly dont want me reading their blog or truly dont enjoy reading mine.

Eh, I've taken Spanish all my life, but I cant speak it and have no incentive to.  The language that I DO want to learn, however, is DUTCH.  Why, you ask?  Because Dutch is the shit, it's much more similar to English than most other languages, and they speak it in Amsterdam, which happens to be my favorite country and if there was such a thing as heaven on earth, that would be it for me.

I just answered this Featured Question; you can answer it too!

http://www-personal.umich.edu/~mtstew/index.html

Here's my website.  It's a bit rough around the edges, I didnt put as much time into it as I wanted to since I've been busy with finals and my website was due.  But I'm still proud of it, I'm really glad I took that website-making class.  This is my first website, and it most definitely wont be my last.

BTW, cant you tell where I got the idea for the layout/user interface?

Yesterday was great, I hung out with my (pretty much) only gamer friend that exists here in Ann Arbor.  We got something to eat at Noodle's and Company, which admittedly wasnt that great, then after that we went back to her super-nice and super-clean apartment and played Smash Bros and Pokemon Snap.  She had brought back her sketch art with her, which she didnt want me to see because she didnt think it was very good, but I think that she's a great artist.  She threw away alot of good artwork, much to my dismay.  We watched a couple of movies too, first we watched "Dance of the Dead", a zombie/high school prom themed movie that was surprisingly not bad at all.  Easy to laugh at.  Afterwards I showed her Donnie Darko, which I hadnt seen in years, and it was as good as I had remembered it being.  It was pretty late when I left, I feel bad for letting her walk all the way to my place and back, it was fucking freezing and dark and I fear for her safety since she's a total fucking hottie and as long as I know her I will prevent anything bad from happening to her.  I'm really glad that I know her, she's the only person who still wanted to be friends with me even after I tried asking her out, she's honestly the most kick-ass girl I've ever met.  She's the complete opposite of a cold-hearted bitch, she doesnt get offended by my morbid sense of humor or my borderline racist/sexist jokes, SO cool.  I'm always really nervous and tense whenever I'm around her, I wish I could learn to just relax.  I hope we get to hang out more, I dont think I could possibly get sick of being around her before the day comes that we eventually have to be apart.

Tonight, I need to finish up my website for my website-design class and put that online.  I'll post a link to it here whenever it's finished so that everyone can see it.